Friday, November 14, 2008

Eating at me.

A few days ago I had an off putting conversation with someone. This person wanted me to surrender something, that at the time seemed benign, but as it would turn out, was better left unasked for. This left me thinking. I've always had the habit, of trying to cultivate relationships with people who are simply not as interested as I am. Over the years this has left me with a lot of one sided friendships. A door mat, so to speak. And though at times I can be an ass, I'm a pretty good friend to have. I can be called on day or night, with almost any request, and I usually snap to.
Through my recent and ongoing journey of self exploration, I have come to realize many things about both myself and the people around me. And I keep coming back to one thing. I don't want to be that guy anymore.