AAAAAGGEeerrrr....

This is one of those times when my brain is screaming at me, and I know the the best way to calm it, is to type type type type type type type. But my house really smells terrible right now, and I've narrowed it down to the fridge. So my evening is probably going to be spent on that.

Coming soon,

I promise. I have a metric ton of stuff on my mind I need to get out because it's starting to make my sulci itch. So pretty soon you'll either get one big all encompassing hodgepodge of "what the Hell?", or you'll get a bunch of little ones.

update?

Alright, it's been a while since I posted and I'm stuck at work with nothing to do and feeling a little antsy. So does your brain ever get all filled up with important stuff and you get that feeling like you just want to run to burn off the stress? I feel like that some times, but then I remember that I'm an out of shape lard ass and that I'd only make it about 300 feet before I was worn out and had to stop for a donut break.

Here's my problem, I feel like things are not happening fast enough. I have sort of a plan and everything, but right now it's going to take about five years to get to where I want to be and I want to be there now. To top it off, summer break is killing me, I'm not getting anything done, and can't really. I guess I'm making money (which apparently is a key part of the plan) but it still feels like I'm standing still.

A younger version of myself would be super pissed at me right now, but I'm going to say this anyway. I can't wait for summer to be over and for school to start.

It is very possible that at some point in time I will resume posting my very profound thoughts here. Stay tuned.

I remember this place. This is where I used to write things.

Reflection Day

Reflection day was a few days ago. This day comes every year whether I want it to or not; and I'm not so good about going through the whole routine every year. But this year I made a point of keeping with the tradition I started over a decade ago. For those who have no idea what I'm talking about. On my birthday each year (I've skipped it a couple of times) I go up on top of the Red Hill at 2:22 pm, and get comfortable in a spot where I can see the whole town. And then I reflect on the past year of my life. I also try and figure what I want to do with the next year. Usually it's a pretty quick hike up there and back, but this year I was up there for over an hour. Must have had a lot to figure out. And figure out, I did; in fact, I even can back with a plan. Which is a really good thing because I've been a little stressed lately. I was so pleased with the outcome, that I rewarded myself to an extra special birthday dinner. Being a poor college student, I don't get to treat myself to sushi very often. But hey, it's my day right? After months of living on oatmeal, boxes of mac-n-cheese, and rice, a meal of basil spring rolls, eel, and a big piece of German chocolate was just about as good as it gets.

I don't think I'm going to keep this place anymore. I rarely post anything, and I'm a little indifferent to it lately. Were I more popular, or had more friends that used this medium to keep tabs on me, I might feel more inclined to keep it. But that is not the case. This has served mainly as a forum to vent frustrations. I'm going to have to give this some thought. Either I need to delete it altogether, or update it more than once every three months.